Today has been a transitory moment for me, coming to the understanding that I am moving and making decisions on what I will leave and what I will take.
Nature is .... second-nature to me. Green trees, gardens, plants all help me breath; they give me peace and serenity. I was so fortunate to have spent most of my life in the natural world, from my career in mountaineering where I lived outside for many years, to growing gardens for years in Oregon. Oregon is my home, where I grew up and where I live for the moment. And although I am super excited about moving to a new city with new opportunities, I must take a moment to express gratitude for being able to spend these last few years among the green.
Green is the color of growth, renewal and rebirth. It helps to balance the heart and head. It is comprised of yellow-- the color of clarity and optimism, and blue--the color of hope. And it is this that I choose to take with me, rather than my physical plants. Soon I will leave the Oregon green, and move to the desert brown for new opportunity. So focusing on optimism and hope, growth and renewal, will always keep me in the green.
From the beginning, I was drawn to music, as well as many other things... athletics, health, teaching, nature, inventing, business. I have an eclectic mind that moves a million miles a minute, and thinks very differently than most. It took me a long time to understand that this was a gift. Mostly I cursed it and tagged it as abnormal. "I just don't seem to fit in, no matter how hard I try." And boy did I try.
I felt a desparate yearning to find a way in which I could be understood, in a world where nobody seemed to get me. But in my many years, becoming "normal" never came, no matter how much energy I used to dim my very different light. So, I am embarking on a journey wherein I will discover the jewel of "me", knowing that I am not what others may expect. Rather embracing what I can be, without any expectation of what that is. I am excited to see what that is.... unknowing.... restless.... waiting.
And if you feel anything like this.... follow me on this journey. I've wrapped my fear in courage, nestled my doubts in love, and am walking in my direction with abandon.
I am committed ... in showing my doubts and how I work through them; showing my successes and how they propel; showing the abstinence of progress and what it takes to grab forward to a new understanding.
Yes, I am a musician and I perform for audiences. But I consider this commitment as my "performance art"... the art of making it through to a new understanding, and you are my audience. I can't wait to see where this takes us.
--- with love and gratitude, Yvonne
Today has been a transitory moment for me, coming to the understanding that I am moving and making decisions on what I will leave and what I will take. 